Christian Testimony: How to Get Rid of Anger

I Live in Sin, Powerless to Free Myself

I Understand the Root Cause of Sin

One day in June, I met Sister Weiwei and Brother Kevin. They were both pious Christians, and we often gathered together to fellowship on the Bible. Their fellowships were filled with light and I found them to be highly beneficial. I also told them of my pain at living in sin and being powerless to free myself from it. One time, Brother Kevin said cheerfully to me, “The Lord Jesus whom we have yearned for has returned, and on the foundation of His work in the Age of Grace, He is performing the work of judgment through words. Only by keeping up with God’s new work can we obtain the supply of the water of life.” When I heard that the Lord had returned, I felt both happy and excited. I tripped over myself to ask the brother: “You said the Lord has returned — can it be true?”

I Find the Way to Cast Off Sin

At that point, another sister who was online asked, “Brother Kevin, we all want to cast off the bonds of sin, and I have tried to do it many times in different ways, but I have never found the right path. Please could you fellowship with us about how the second coming of the Lord will save us from the bonds of sin?” After listening to the sister’s question, I also waited in anticipation for the answer.

I Understand the Root of My Angry Temper and God’s Words Become Even More Precious to Me

One time, my son came home after school, and when I flipped through his school journal, I saw a message from a teacher: “Chengcheng has had a spat with his schoolmates at school today and he would not admit fault no matter what was said to him, and he lost his temper with me. Please make sure you educate your son.” Reading this, I could not contain my anger and I exploded. This son of mine really was causing me a lot of worry and was always being a pain. I’d received many such notes over the years, and I often had to apologize to the teachers and the other parents. The more I thought about it, the angrier I got, and I gave him a good telling off. Seeing him look so wronged and afraid after my scolding, I felt upset and reproached myself. I then went before God to seek, and I saw these words of God: “Once a man has status, he will often find it difficult to control his mood, and so he will enjoy seizing upon instances to express his dissatisfaction and vent his emotions; he will often flare up into rage for no apparent reason, so as to reveal his ability and let others know that his status and identity are different from those of ordinary people. Of course, corrupt people without any status will also frequently lose control. Their anger is frequently caused by damage to their individual benefits. In order to protect their own status and dignity, corrupt mankind will frequently vent their emotions and reveal their arrogant nature.” Only when I read these revelations in God’s words did I become aware of the root cause of why I lost my temper with my son — it was because my reputation had been damaged. Whenever a teacher sent a message saying how my son had done this wrong or done that wrong, I felt like my son was not reflecting well on me and was making me look bad, and that is why I lectured him so condescendingly. I also came to understand that getting angry was an expression of my satanic arrogant disposition. In the past, to make my son change his bad habits, I would often lose my temper with him and lecture him condescendingly, compulsively trying to change his bad habits. From the outside, I looked as though I was doing this because I meant well for my son, but in essence, I was treating my son by relying on my satanic arrogant disposition, and I was harming him as well. I finally saw that the life I was living out had no semblance of a genuine human being, and that I was too selfish and too arrogant. When I thought about it carefully, I realized that it was normal for children to make mistakes and that I should be guiding him in a better, more systematic way, so that he learned to change his bad habits, and not lecturing him by relying on my arrogant disposition.

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