Relying on God, I Found a Miracle Cure for 3 Cancers That Afflicted Me

By Xiao’ai

The Abnormalities in My Body Strike Fear Into Me

At 6 o’clock that afternoon, my son took me to the provincial hospital for a checkup, after which the doctor drew some fluid from my chest for a test. While examining me, the doctor (a Christian) said only God could cure my disease and asked me to pray to God. What the doctor said filled me with foreboding, and I suspected that I might have some serious disease, otherwise he wouldn’t say such things. Immediately, a feeling of desolation and sadness crept into my heart. I thought: I am only in my 50s and haven’t seen my son get married. What should I do if I really have a terminal illness? I then prayed to God: “O God, I have no idea how my condition is, and I am very scared. May You lead me!” After the prayer, my heart calmed down a lot. God is the Sovereign of all things, I thought. The life and death of everything in the whole universe are determined by God, and my life is even more controlled by God’s hands. How many years I can live is preordained by God. No matter whether the lump in my lung is benign or malignant, I won’t die unless God permits it. I must have faith in God. In the following days when I waited for the results of the examination, I kept praying to God, not daring to leave Him.

The Diagnosis of Cancer Seems to Me a Bolt From the Blue

My husband’s fellowship gave me some comfort and I came to know that God had allowed this illness to befall me and that I should obey and not blame Him. Not long after, the doctor came and said he would prescribe me some medicine and asked us to go home. The doctor’s words made me feel instantly depressed and I thought: Other people who have cancer could expect to be cured by chemotherapy, but the doctor doesn’t even bother to give me that. I’m definitely beyond saving. Seeing my pained look, the doctor said to me, “We doctors are unable to cure your illness, but as long as you rely on and pray to God through faith, you will witness God’s deeds.” What he said reminded me — yes, my only hope now is God.

While in the train home, I couldn’t calm down no matter what. The thought of my unmarried son, filial daughter and caring husband left my heart heavy with sadness. As I was lamenting for the brevity and preciousness of life, my eyes gradually became wet with tears …

Afflicted With Three Types of Cancer, What Should I Do?

After listening to this passage of sermons, my heart gradually calmed down. It’s true, I thought. I am a Christian, so I shouldn’t view things I encounter based on their appearance, but should come before God to seek the truth and learn lessons. Since I fell ill, I’ve been living in the fear of death and a constant state of panic. Although my husband fellowshiped with me on God’s will, I didn’t enter into it and had no faith in God at all. I’ve spent every day worrying about my illness, living within the trickeries of Satan in unendurable pain. At that time, I thought of some brothers and sisters in the church who had had cancer before. They viewed things according to God’s word and, on the foundation of obedience to God’s sovereignty, relied on God through faith. After they had learned lessons, they saw God’s miraculous deeds and their illness got better. As I thought about this, I felt very upset and prayed to God: “O God, I’ve seen that my faith is too small, and that what I used to say about obeying You and having faith in You is nothing but empty words. When cancer befell me, I lost my faith and even misunderstood and blamed You. God, I am willing to repent to You and submit to this situation. Please help me and lead me to experience Your work.”

Later, my brothers and sisters in the church all wrote letters to me, in which they fellowshiped with me about God’s will and encouraged me to lean on God and experience His work through faith. Feeling God’s love and the warmth of God’s family, I found more faith to face my illness. Since then, I often said prayers of obedience to God and sought the lessons I ought to learn in this illness.

It Turns Out I Am Just Doing Deals With God in My Belief

I felt these words of God were just talking about me. I did not believe in God for the sake of loving and satisfying God, but instead I believed in order to obtain blessings and welfare of the flesh — this was actually making bargains with God! When God’s blessings and grace were with me, I would feel happy and energized when performing my duties. But when illness befell me, I became negative and misunderstood God, and even attempted to use my suffering and expending as capital to reason with God, blaming God for failing to protect and care for me. I simply did not have an ounce of reason! God is the Creator of all things while I am His creation, so it is the law of heaven and earth that I should worship God and expend for Him without making any demands or seeking to gain anything from Him. Although I appeared as though I was doing my duty, I actually wanted to use my toiling, forsaking, and expending as things to exchange for the blessings of the kingdom of heaven. By believing in God this way, I, in essence, was making bargains with God and cheating Him, and this was what God loathed. If I did not turn back, I would definitely be detested, rejected and eliminated by God when His work concluded. I then thought of Job, who always feared God and shunned evil. When he went through the great trials in which his children met with disaster, his property was all taken away, and his whole body was covered in sores, he didn’t complain about God or reason with God. When his wife asked him to abandon God, he could even rebuke her and defend God’s name, saying, “Shall we receive good at the hand of God, and shall we not receive evil?” From this I saw that Job believed in God merely to worship God, and that there was no adulteration or extravagant demands in his faith. I really couldn’t compare with him!

Coming to this realization, I felt very upset and prayed to God through my tears, “O God, now I finally see that I am not someone who pursues the truth, and that my forsaking and expending in the past is all for the sake of gaining blessings and peace. When cancer befell me, I misunderstood and blamed You, and even enumerated my deeds to reason with You. I really am without reason! If You hadn’t exposed me in such a practical way, I never would have realized my mistaken pursuits but would continue down the wrong path. God, this illness is Your practical revelation of me, and even more Your salvation for me, and I’m willing to remedy my erroneous views on pursuit. Besides, I’ve also seen Your great love. When I was feeling worried and afraid, You told me to pray and lean on You through the doctor’s words; when I found out that I have late-stage cancer, You used my husband to fellowship with me on Your will and give me faith. I’ve seen that You’ve never left me but are always by my side. O God, I really am unworthy of this kind of grace from You. I wish to entrust my life to You and no longer take any thought for myself. Whether my illness can be cured or not, I will submit to Your orchestrations and arrangements and use every day I have to fulfill my duties as a created being.”

Submitting to God’s Arrangements and Seeing a Miracle

This time when I was afflicted with three types of cancer, although my physical body suffered some pain, I gained a practical knowledge of God’s faithfulness and loveliness and came to appreciate the authority and power of God’s words. Also, by experiencing all this, I came to know and remedied my wrong view that belief in God was solely to obtain blessings, and the impurities and motives in my belief in God were cleansed away.

From: Grow in Christ



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